**Update**
I've thought a lot today about my future trip to Ireland and I've come to a conclusion. I want to go with Joel. I want to have someone to snuggle up with in front of the hotel's fireplace on a cold and rainy evening. I want to walk hand in hand with him through the country side and shops. I want to see all that Ireland has to offer...but with him. Maybe next summer my mom and in-laws can help with the kids so Joel and I can go together. I realized that if I go this summer, it would be amazing, but in order to have my dream vacation, I would need Joel with me.
I'm still contemplating this summer...maybe I could go for a week, maybe I'll wait until Joel can come with me, maybe we'll wait until the kids can come as well. Who knows!
Thanks for letting me have my temper tantrum!
(I hid it, because I actually don't like whining)
