Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Once again I'm using this as a journal. I don't really want to talk about it, but I feel like it's something I need to document. Today started out really well. Mikayla and I made happy face pancakes (she was a huge help), then I actually managed to get all 3 of us bathed and ready for the day, and I picked up the house (yeah! all of the pine needles are gone!)...then I got a phone call from the pediatrician that went like this:
"Hello. this is Dr. A, is this Hunter's mom"
"Yep!" I reply cheerfully
"We just received the results from one of the tests that was taken at the hospital. It looks like Hunter tested positive for cystic fibrosis"
"Oh" what?!
"We need to do further testing to either confirm he has it or not"
"Oh, um...okay" I choke out.
"You have to do something called a sweat test. You get this done at either St. Joe's or the Phoenix children's hospital. We'll set up an appointment and then call you back"
It went on a little longer, but at this point I couldn't really say much due to my throat not permitting me to speak. Then I googled cystic fibrosis. Things like having an average life expectancy of 37 and life threatening infections just slapped me in the face. The newborn screen doesn't mean he has it for sure. We'll find out after the sweat test. You never expect that any of the tests they do will come back with a bad result...I never even paid attention to the tests that were being taken. My perfect little boy. My sweet, precious miracle might have to suffer and that is more than I can take right now...or ever take. I've been praying constantly that he in fact doesn't have this disease. I've been so blessed and have so much. Please, please take something away from me...just don't let my baby suffer. Please.
I don't really know what to think. But I'm scared. 

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

Hunter's Birth Story

The Story ***TMI ALERT***
I'm writing this down for me. If you want to read it, feel free (I like reading other people's stories), but don't say I didn't warn you!
Okay, so I guess I should write this down before I forget the whole story (ha...like I could forget it, 14.5" head is all I'm gonna say. ouch!). Well, it started Sunday night around 11pm (to everyone who told me not to worry "I'll know when I'm having a contraction"...thanks for nothing). My back was uncomfortable and they were coming regularly..but that's it! So, I decided (after an hour or so of timing them, they were 6 minutes apart) that if I could sleep through them then they must not be "real". So I went to bed, waking up as Joel was about to leave. I had some more contractions...a little stronger, about 3 or 4 minutes apart, but I still wasn't convinced...until my water broke. Then it clicked "I've been having contractions every few minutes apart and my water just broke, I think I should get to the Hospital, and soon!" So I called Joel and told him to come back home. The contractions still weren't bad, it was pretty easy just to breathe through them. In the car they were 3 minutes apart and walking into the hospital I had to stop in the parking lot to breathe thru them, but it still wasn't too bad. Then they took me to triage (about 7:30) where they started coming on faster (like every 2 minutes, or closer..I'm not really sure) and a lot stronger. She checked me pretty much right away since they were so close, and I was already at a 7. She hurried and tried to ask me questions but there wasn't much time. She asked if I wanted an epidural and I said "no" (I knew that this was the transitional phase and wouldn't last too long), but then I started to get scared because, while I had been saying I wanted a natural birth, now the reality set in that it was actually going to happen. Holy Hannah. She quickly wheeled me to the delivery room (right next door) and more nurses came in. They told me to move to the other bed...hahaha...right. I stood up (barely) and rolled onto the bed where I stayed sideways clutching the rail. Then the urge to push came and it was so intense that I can't even begin to describe it. And it hurt....a lot. I remember being extremely cold and thirsty (and mad because nobody would get me any dang water!). I remeber not getting into the position they wanted me in, but staying on my side thru it all. I remember screaming for someone to help me, and my sweet husband telling me not to worry that the doctor was there now while he stroked my back. I remember looking into my nurses eyes as she told me to breathe in and out and "blow away the pain" and I remember another nurse telling me to "Push like I mean it" (which she was promptly rewarded with the look of death, I'm sure). Then, just like that it was over. And I was exhausted, cold, thirsty, and completely in love with my new little boy...all 8 lbs 9oz of him and even his giant head. I was bleeding more than "they would like to see" so they gave my pitocin which didn't help so they gave me a shot of something else (which worked). From the time I realized I was in labor (6:30 am) to the time I had him (8:24 am) everything went very smoothly and I couldn't have asked for a better experience...except if I had to do it again, I would bring my own dang water.

Thursday, December 18, 2008

Saturday, December 13, 2008

Keeping Busy

Well, I'm still preggers (and yes, my edd was Friday- I guess that's why it's called "expected" due date not "certain"). So to keep myself from going insane, I've been getting ready for Christmas- getting all of the shopping done...a little too much shopping. Also, I've always wanted ornaments that had some meaning behind them and that represented each year we've been a family, so I decided to make mini double sided scrapbook ornaments:

So far I've completed years 2003-2007. If you want to know what I used to make them (it was important to make them unbreakable since there happens to be a 2 year old who likes to knock the tree over running loose in my house), then I'll post it on pumpkin patch a little later.

My mom also came down this weekend to help me out with last minute baby stuff- and she painted the nursery for me!! So, my bags are packed, clothes are washed, nursery (almost) done, and the house is pretty much clean...any time he's ready I am too! We still need a name..but we'll probably have to wait until he's here.

Monday, December 8, 2008

Don't forget to check out my craft blog pumpkinpatchscrap.blogspot.com! (Oh, and I'm still pg).

Monday, December 1, 2008

Sonoran Museum

Giving Grandpa a big smile

"No, I will not give you my sippy cup. I want to ruin your pretty picture, mom"


Where'd the turtles go?
This was Thanksgiving week. I'll go into more detail later, I just wanted everyone to know that I'm still here, doing well, and still preggers.