“I don’t think the problem has much to do with the innate ability to initiate. I think it has to do with believing that it’s possible and acceptable for you to do it. We’ve only had these doors open wide for a decade or so, and most people have been brainwashed into believing that their job is to copy edit the world, not to design it.
There's a huge shortage... a shortage of people who will say go.”
-Seth Godin

"Don't let the voice of critics paralyze you."
-President Dieter F. Uchtdorf

Maybe you feel like your voice, your story or your idea isn't good enough. Putting yourself, your true self, out there for others to see, to judge, takes courage.

You can stay safely hidden away, never knowing what could have been gained or you can take a chance. You will be sure to feel the sting of critics, and yet you'll gain more than you could ever imagine.

If it's something that makes you truly happy, then it's not a waste of time.



Ralph Waldo Emerson
It was a high counsel that I once heard given to a young person, "Always do what you are afraid to do."

Bernard Edmonds
To dream anything that you want to dream. That is the beauty of the human mind. To do anything that you want to do. That is the strength of the human will. To trust yourself to test your limits. That is the courage to succeed.


Louis E. Boone
Don't fear failure so much that you refuse to try new things. The saddest summary of a life contains three descriptions: could have, might have, and should have.


Rancid
That feeling isn't fear, it's just telling you to MOVE!!

Conclusion

**Update**
I've thought a lot today about my future trip to Ireland and I've come to a conclusion. I want to go with Joel. I want to have someone to snuggle up with in front of the hotel's fireplace on a cold and rainy evening. I want to walk hand in hand with him through the country side and shops. I want to see all that Ireland has to offer...but with him. Maybe next summer my mom and in-laws can help with the kids so Joel and I can go together. I realized that if I go this summer, it would be amazing, but in order to have my dream vacation, I would need Joel with me.

I'm still contemplating this summer...maybe I could go for a week, maybe I'll wait until Joel can come with me, maybe we'll wait until the kids can come as well. Who knows!

Thanks for letting me have my temper tantrum!
(I hid it, because I actually don't like whining)

Beauty and the Beast

I'm so glad that they are introducing more kid friendly Broadway shows. This year, Mikayla and I (along with my sister in law Bernice and her daughter Abby) went to see Beauty and the Beast at Gammage.


It was wonderful! The only downside was that it started too late and therefore ended too late. We left during intermission (@ 9:30-ish)...but I think we should have stayed. You see, right before intermission, the beast sings a really sad and lonely song which played heavily on my poor sweet little girls heartstrings. She sniffled all the way home asking why the Beast was so sad and asked if she could please go give him a hug. So sad.

November

This November we went to Disneyland for Mikayla's birthday! Of course, it was awesome. We got there on Saturday night. We were planning on going to the beach on Sunday and then go to our hotel that night (Grand California) so she could wake up, walk a few steps and we'd surprise her with Disneyland! No waiting, no fuss, just "Happy Birthday! We're in Disneyland!". Well, Joel and I had a little miscommunication when it came to packing. I packed everything, he loaded it...but well, unfortunately, one of the bags got left behind...the bag with all of the kids clothes in it...oops! So, we went shopping, then to the beach, then to the mall, and then to our hotel.

While we were at the beach they were having a memorial of sorts for a surfer who had passed away. It was called a paddle out. It was actually quite touching, I sort of felt as though I were intruding on something sacred.

Then, of course, we went to Wahoo's!

The morning of Mikayla's birthday I went and got some balloons, a cupcake and her presents from the car. It was so fun to see her face light up! Then we walked out to the park. This trip she was actually able to go on Splash Mountain (which she loved!) and Space mountain (which she did not love...at all), rocky mountain railroad, and of course we all went on Pirate's...a few times. She met Mickey, Pluto, Rose, Tinkerbell, and my favorite: Goofy!

Halloween

I'm So Excited To Get Married!

There's a new credit card commercial that ends up with the dad finding out that they're expecting triplets. Well, after seeing this, Mikayla turns to me, wide eyed, and asks "Why does she have three babies?!"
"Well, that's how many babies Heavenly Father gave her." I replied.
"I want three babies!" She said with the biggest smile.
"Well, when you're my age you can have babies...."
"Okay, mom"
"After highschool..."
"Okay, mom."
"and you have to get married first!"
Then she shrugged her shoulders in excitement and started doing a little dance. It looked almost as if she was running in place.
"I'm so excited to get married!!" she squeaked.
I couldn't help but laugh and then I told her to go tell that to her daddy!

On a completely unrelated note, today we went to the park. We didn't have time to eat breakfast, so I brought along the trusty granola bar. Well, when Hunter talks...if you can call it that because most of the time it's just a bunch of gibberish. BUT apparently he's been holding out on me because after I had opened the granola bar and tried to give it to him, he said as clear as day, "No. I don't want it." and shook his head.

Taco Festival

It's the little things that make life fun. Little things like Taco Festivals! Joel was working right down the street from where it was going to be, so he scored some free tickets. Then when we got there we tried tacos from 10 different places. Surprisingly, the fancy tacos were nasty. My favorite one was from Ticos. Alas, my all time favorite taco place Guedo's, was not there (so sad). They have the best chicken tacos...in my opinion.

Then we went right next door to the Scottsdale Fashion Square Mall. Went shopping, walked around, and then went to the best little kids corner I've ever seen. It's small, but not very busy with a big pirate ship, house, castle, and tree house complete with it's own little bathroom and drinking fountain and it's fenced in! No escapees!

It was such a nice weekend with the family. Can't wait to do something like that again.

Zombie Prom

This year for my birthday, I decided to have a zombie Prom! We played some old school tunes (reminded me of going to Junior High dances and Stake dances-the only difference is that there were kids at this one!).

The kids did a pretty good job of staying in the nursery at first...until they figured out what was going on down the hall...then they came to party! It was cute to see the little guys break dancing and jumping around, and cuter still to see all the daddy's dancing with their daughters. So fun!!

(My sister was taking the pics...soooooo, that explains why she's in all of them!!)

When is a negative a positive?

Hunter has had a trying couple of weeks. He's been waking up at 1, then I when I finally get him back to sleep, he wakes up again. I repeat the process for about an hour.

Then in addition to this, both of my children seem to be taking lessons out of the "101 Ways to Whine" book and they are driving me crazy. Well, last night we went through his new routine (I'm wondering if it's night terrors?) so this morning I was t.i.r.e.d. but I had an offer I couldn't refuse- the chance to go to Ikea with a friend (so fun, even if I was dragging myself through the store, it was worth it), but after a little while Hunter started crying, pulling hair, he wouldn't eat anything, and he would whine about everything. This of course just added to my energy crisis. Then when we were leaving my friend's house, Mikayla had a meltdown. I got Hunter to bed, gave Mikayla a bath, and tried to lay down. Just opening my eyes at this point seemed to take more energy than I had. Of course it didn't last long and when Hunter got up he was back to whining and Mikayla was pretending she didn't know what it meant when mommy said "No"...I was so incredibly frustrated at this point (I may or may not have thrown a toy doll, making her head fall off). I try to be patient and not yell or spank too often, but they make it so hard sometimes! So, I decided to try something new: I put her in a "cold" shower (it's pretty much impossible to get a cold shower in AZ right now), she hated it-effective. Well, Hunter saw, started crying, so I put him in. He loved it. He was laughing and having so much fun.

I don't know if you've been around Hunter when he laughs, but it is soo contagious! Soon we were all giggling. I took him out, dried them off and grabbed my camera. We laughed and played and posed for the camera. It ended up being a really fun, silly experience. Instead of getting upset, we were able to turn their energy (and my lack of energy) into something fun and lasting.

{I love this picture, he's actually making puppy noises...that sound like kitty cat noises. Too cute}

Redecorating and A Baby Shower!

Some people have asked me where the heck I've gone...well...

First, I've been trying to redo my living room. We bought a new couch and I refinished this buffet table and picture that hangs above it (it's the declaration of Independence):


I can't find the right curtains (they've always been so hard for me to find!) I want something vintage and fun...and not too grandma-ish. Any tips on where to find some sweet curtains?

~*~

Then I hosted my friend's baby shower. She didn't want it to be too frilly so we decided to have a purple and green baby shower.

I love working with my friend Lucinda. If I have an idea she can really make it come to life! I asked her if she could make a banner and things to hang from the chandelier and voila! She went above and beyond- it looked spectacular!


And of course Hunter and I had a cold to top it all off...Needless to say, it's been a pretty busy week!